My mother just came into my room and woke me up. My sister passed away in her sleep at the hospice a couple of hours ago.
Got the news today that my sister’s cancer has spread to her bones, lungs, and possibly her brain. We thought we had a few months left, now it’s weeks.
Today we transferred my sister to a hospice and I had to print off a bunch of do not resuscitate orders. So that’s been my afternoon.
It’s really awesome when medication starts malfunctioning and I’ve been awake for roughly 60 hours and my doctors appointment is not until Friday lord help me
Batman is having none of your shit today, Superman.
So I’ve finally got my shit together in terms of both where I’m going with my life in general and my depression/anxiety disorders and for the first time in as long as I can remember I’m happy with life and that happiness isn’t based off of another individual. Lately I’ve found myself just smiling for no apparent reason and that’s so not like me that it actually sort of weirds me out.
The excitement that was for going back to school on Tuesday is quite rapidly fading and being replaced by anxiety.
Why does even hearing someone say your name still make my heart race and make me feel anxious, this seriously pisses me off.
How I spent Friday night.